not the plan.

It isn't right that Tony isn't here. That was not the plan. We were all supposed to grow old together -- the four musketeers (Tony, Ashley, Karly, Me.) We can't do that anymore. I just don't get it.. This is not what is supposed to be happening.

I miss Tony.

I love Tony.

I need Tony.

.....what am I supposed to do?

Grateful #4

I am extremely grateful I voted yesterday in the 2008 elections, and my candidate, Barack Obama, came out victoriously. I believe he will make at least some of the changes America needs. I also am grateful the Proposal 1 in Michigan, Medicinal Marijuana, won with over 60% of the votes. I helped to pass around petitions for that my senior year in high school, so I am glad that it all paid off for the best. Yay for democracy! Yay for change! Yay for some sort of hope instilled in my state & this country.

the baby.

Tony's sister, Ashley, had her baby this morning.

There were some complications, and it was very intense for a while (baby not breathing, etc.)

Ashley needs a blood transfusion, but now the baby's vitals are good.

Ashley & Bobby may be young to have a child, but this little baby boy is going to help give us all something to love and care for. It won't make us forget Tony, or replace him in anyway, it will just help heal the sadness.

I am not sure about much concerning the infant right now. Visiting hours are from 1:00 - 8:00 p.m. So, I will go to visit Ashley, and then I will meet Tiffany in Covington.

I didn't really explain much about Tiffany, but she is my best friend in the whole world, my other half. I don't know if I could handle all of this without her. She keeps me strong & keeps me smiling.

Hopefully, I can post a picture of the baby later.